Saturday, April 19, 2008
sigh .hey friend ,why did you do this to me ? what did i do wrong to you until you tell teacher ? did i ever betray you ? are you not satisfied with me ? If yes , say it out .why are you so big mouth ?where is the trust between us and the team ? why are you always blaming me when i did nothing wrong to you ?If you are reading this , please answer me . I wont be angry to you but i will be angry if u lied to me .But i will feel hurt . i know that as a captain , i must show good examples to the team members but i failed to be one . It is hard to be a captain . i know you wanted to be a captain but you could not be a captain because of the seniors choose who should be the captain . i failed ! you said that you heard that i stand down of being captain . and she said that hey , teacher told you not to tell me . in chinese language . you think that by speaking in mandarin , i dont understand is it ? For your more information , i understand what you said okay . why must you two keep this from me ? why ?? did i ever hurt you until you must do this ?? i feel hurt that you two betrayed me . you told me secrets . i didnt tell anyone . because i know its a secret between you and me . but when i told you secrets , you blurted out all to your 'god' sister . are you not satisfied with me ?? both of you is like my two close floorball friends but until the incident happen , both of you is like an enemy to me . I try not to have enemies in this sch but both of you forced me to . That morning , i was not in a good mood . sat down somewhere near my class . relax for a while . then came my own floorball friend , wont tell who , and sat beside me . i told her that mayb i stand down of being captain because of having relationship . she told me everything what happened . after i heard the truth , tears rolled down my cheeks . I felt so disappointed in both of you . she comfort me not to cry but tears of mine cant stop rolling down . Why must a friend that i am not so close to tell me the truth ? why cant you tell me the truth ? scared ? why be ? i'm not a monster that scares you off . told everything to nisa , rieska and dania . hugged them in hall and when lining up to get ready for morning assembly . then came this two friends comforting me not to cry . now they are telling me that they hate beverly and blaming beverly which told teacher that i having relationship . i dont believe them because i trust beverly more than i trust them both . i know beverly wont do that to me . sigh . God knows who is lieing to me . and sooner you will get it back from god . Labels: it ends tonight . gone .
